Uncertain Times

…RobCullen@Celfypridd.co.uk

40 years since the end of the 1984/85 Miners Strike.

Remembering.

Yesterday I went to Chapter Arts Centre to watch films made by Welsh independent film makers Chris Rushton & Chapter Video & Chapter Film Workshopbefore during and after the 1984/5 miners strike. It was an emotional reminder of my experience of returning to Wales in 1981 to do a social work training after nine years away .

One of the films we watched was of the fight to prevent the closure of Penrhiwceiber – a film made by miners of their community. My first placement for the Social Work course was in the Citizens Advice centre in Mountain Ash which neighbours Penrhiwceiber. I was shocked – an understatement – by the levels of deprivation and poverty in this close knit community. And shocked to see the statistics scrolled out on the film and to understand that the same levels of deprivation still holds its grip to this day.

My poem “Uncertain Times” was written during 1984. It is no coincidence that the front photograph of my poetry collection “Uncertain Times” is of the Naval Colliery, Penygraig, Rhondda taken in 1968 after its closure. It’s the place where the miners leader John Hopla in 1910 was arrested for “incitement” and as a result subjected to twelve months imprisonment with hard labour which broke his health and he died not long after his release.

With the rise of Farage and Reform in the South Wales Valleys the last verse seem strangely prophetic!

Rob Cullen 3rd March 2025.

Uncertain times.

1

I see only forgotten men

Living in places

With once famous names.

I hear only words

Of tales and deeds

Of days of men and women

Long since forgotten

Long since dead.

And in these times of uncertainty

People live surrounded

By purposeless decline

A landscape of waste

And those twisted lines

Of once white shone steel

Polished by the unceasing grind

Of the turning wheel

Now lie hidden by elder.

And gathering the dirt brown stain

Of rust and disuse

Map out the death struggle

Of this dark place

And in this uncertainty people live.

Writhing in its decay

Its history ensnares

the withering and hopeless present.

But its people refuse to cry out.

Anger has been replaced

By that silence of regret

That pitiless lament

Of resignation and acceptance.

Some say it is our age

As if we were born in other times

And others days

Or as if this turmoil

And unceasing uncertainty

Was of our own making.

It has taken one hundred years

To silence and to forget

To carve away with such precision.

One hundred long hard years

To isolate those memories

To purge our dreams

And cut with all the accuracy

Of liquid golden steel

The misery of generations

The torments of our people

Of the years of our childhood

And before.

We can do nothing

We can say nothing

We are not listened to.

This is the song of our people

We suffer we suffer

We have cried too much

We have cried too long

And we have become lost.

But do not stir us

For we are dark dogs

We are shadow dogs

We sleep in motionless terror.

Do not speak to our hearts

Of indignities, of suffering.

Do not kindle our hatred.

Do not evoke words to spur

Our slumbering emotions.

We sleep we sleep.

2.

In Silence

That strange silence

When did it first occur?

Were there no witnesses?

Did no one see its coming?

Had it been something gradual?

Something that had begun

Without our knowing.

Or with that abruptness

That quickness of the blade

That cuts and severs

And life without knowing

Without recognising its own going

Seeps silently away.

That strange silence

When did it first occur?

Were our eyes turned away?

Our intelligence caught

By other curious happenings.

Was it that? Simply

A distraction of sorts.

Or was it something

That we secretly welcomed?

And now if there are regrets

It’s too late, much too late.

All that has been is no longer

All that may have been

Is now silent and forgotten.

Who will remember?

Or will it become

A few pages here and there

Of names and muttered words?

Some faint remembrances?

That strange vision

Of people blackened

Standing in cobbled streets

Faces turned towards camera

Their eyes watching

Looking but seeing nothing.

And we see nothing of them.

Their world our past

A fleeting glance caught

On the papers gloss

And in this hour I ask

Is that all that remains?

That strange silence.

3.

Of words and truth.

Like grasses bundled

And withered in storm

We are blown helplessly

And not a word is spoken.

Who sings the authentic song?

Who speaks the words of truth?

Who stands for me and mine?

Who looks at what we see?

Who hears what we hear?

Who breathes the air we breathe?

Who sees what is right and wrong?

Who speaks for me and mine?

Who sings the authentic song?

Where are our heroes and poets now?

1984.

RobCullen@Celfypridd.com

On the brink with narrow men.

The Cold War overshadowed most of my childhood

fear was latch hooked on everyday things

it was the Reds they said would do us harm

Fear went on through my teenage years too,

the continuous threat nuclear arsenals posed

the bombers of all sides armed and ready to go

Polaris submarines lurked in the deep oceans

and Cruise missiles came in as a late addition

something changed something called détente

The wars continued they just found another way

around that inconvenience it was simple

they just stopped calling them wars

But now we’ve all caught amnesia

and fear is spreading everywhere

politicians can’t seem to help themselves

Ladling fear wherever they can

it’s an all too obvious narrow man’s plan

while the dismantling goes on

Of Education, the National Health Service,

Social Care and so much more

it’s easy to spot the distraction of fear

While the narrow men shout watch for the reds

but the same time get into the Chinese bed

remember there is a collective amnesia at large

Soon we’ll hear the justification for war

soon we’ll hear the need for boots on the ground

in whatever land is decided by the narrow men

And now we’ve got drones and assassinations

taking place without a Judge in sight

no rights, no wrongs, executions keep going on.

….

And the ramping up of the war of words

to justify, bamboozle and hoodwink

that the actual threat is their stupidity.

….

And were all living in that fear time again.

and nothing has been learned

nothing has changed the narrow men

the narrow men keep getting richer

and the poor get poorer and poorer.

©robcullen2018.

Two of my poems published in The Seventh Quarry – Swansea International Poetry Magazine Publisher Editor Peter Thabit Jones.

Light Blue

a long light blue shawl,

the colour of forget me nots,

used now as a tablecloth,

a way of remembering

those days I suppose.

It hangs on the wash line,

stained by a spill of red wine,

remains of the house party,

celebrating your birth

and the four years since your return,

 

Distant memories of Addis

somethings still vivid.

I regret the spill, despoiling the blue,

the stubbornness of the stain

lingers still. An evocation of the way,

life turns unexpectedly.

The accident of your creation,

the battle of your birth,

the fight for your life.

and now look at you.

For Beth.

 

©robcullen17032020.

And so life renews

….

Picking the last of the runner beans,

dried out, papery pods, left to run to seed

withering vines, clinging to cut ash poles.

I run my thumb along each brown pod,

split open, see the gleam of seeds,

nestled in rows strangely foetal pink.

Black striated markings, a reminder,

of Yellow Hammers, scribbled

warnings to Adders – dangers close.

Each bean wrapped by the silver sheen,

of a delicate silken layer, an amnios of a kind,

such care the plant takes to protect its young.

I’ll store them now dried and hardened,

in a dark cool place to wait the coming spring,

plant them in waiting beds, and watch life renew again.

….

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robcullenfoto©15072015

Autumn Edge

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….

I count the species in the orchard hedge

Maple, Blackthorn, Hawthorn and Hazel thrive

Blackberry and Honeysuckle intertwine

Elder pruned and cut hard to renew

two Oaks, two tall Maples break the line

a Red Admiral sits on a Buddleia leaf

needing to find a place to hibernate.

….

An idyllic scene a man laying a hedge

the clear blue skies under an autumn sun

but never far from my mind the other world.

Of war in Syria, in Yemen, Somalia, in Gaza

The unrelenting brutality, murder of people,

and the suffering of people in these times

and of the silence of people of my kind

and of the silence, the discordant unravelling

of the myth of the Wests superiority

of the myth of the Wests democracy

of the myth of the Wests morality.

Politicians assume the cloak of Pontius Pilate

and wash their hands of responsibility.

As they have always done.

©robcullen2016

Paola Deffendi is still waiting.

Paola Deffendi is waiting.

Giulio Regeni her son lies buried near a line of cypress trees.

Giulio’s gravestone is just a plain marble slab.

unadorned except for flowers, devotional candles and a small photograph

his face open and earnest.

Paola Deffendi is waiting.

‘It’s all over – the happiness of our family was so short.’’

Paolo waits for justice to be done and for truth to be told.

Veritas for Giulio Regeni.

and love will triumph, love for a child will not be out done.

His face open and earnest.

Paola Deffendi is waiting. Nagy said

‘‘We will just have to wait. Inshallah, something will come of it.’’

And the secrecy of darkness enfolds always playing for time,

hoping people will forget, and we and the world will stop watching.

Giulio Regeni lies buried under a line of cypress trees,

his gravestone a plain marble slab.

Paola Deffendi is waiting.

For the real truth and not the convenient truth to be revealed.

Those at the top In Egypt know – they hide secrets in the darkness of their hearts.

Giulio Regini’s broken and violated body was left propped up.

Waiting to be found. But they’d found it already

It was in plain view. And they knew, they knew.

Paola Deffendi is waiting.

A mother honours the child she brought into this world,

the son she loved and watched as any mother would.

A child who grew into manhood with brilliance and compassion,

and the intense inquisitiveness that showed his humanity,

and now Giulio Regeni lies buried under a line of cypress trees.

“But we will not stop until we find an answer. We owe it to his mother.”

©RobCullen2017

Clearances

RobCullen@Celfypridd.co.uk

Clearance.

I see my people’s names

in all the places I search

but I do not see them.

I read my people’s names

on the dry page of the folded map

but the land before me is empty.

I watch the landscape

identifying the marks

that my people have named

but the sound of their voices

is no longer heard.

There is a quietness

no echoing of names called

no trail of our footprints

only the trail of names

in a land that calls itself

by a strangers name.

A land echoing in its emptiness.

The mountains are still with us

but we are nowhere seen.

At Kinlochmoidart 1993.

“And we will present our eyes to the world.

Is it pretentions to believe that we are equal?

Is it asking too much that we want to live?

(From Deliverance: Alan Stivell)

Clearances from “Uncertain Times” Collection of poetry & photographs Rob Cullen published 2017.

Thinking of the people of Gaza & all dispossesed people.

And no person of a Celtic background should support a clearance of people from their lands.