Such odd phrases an evocation a reminder
Of a bonfire
Or a rocket falling backwards to earth
Nothing certain. It describes nothing. No feeling of the way emptiness
Seeps into the core of the soul
No give. No giving any more.
No seeing who or what you are.
Other people’s words empty tunes
Bells that toll but fail to ring true.
Demands are made sweating begins
Empty hands shake holding nothing
And that hiding place sleep. Sleep fails
Lying in darkness surrounded by ghosts
Of past words days the nightmare begins
Involuntary shouting swearing announces
That feeling of shame of failing
That stays through the following day
Those positive achievements
Those days and times when a battle was won
The commendations waved away as worthless.
Burnt out says everything says nothing
It is a meaningless phrase.